Pandemic 2:30 Thoughts

Why am I awake again?

Maybe it was that cookie.

Why did I eat that cookie at 9:30?

Sugar is not good for me that late.

It's not the cookie.

There’s a lot to think about, and even more to worry about.

Who can sleep?

God’s got me.

I’m going to be okay.

Will I ever feel normal again?

The world is just not okay.

I can’t solve it.

I wish I could.

God can solve it.

Can He?

I can do my part.

What is my part?

I need to go back to sleep.

I’m going to be a mess in the morning.

I guess I should pray for someone else who is awake.

God, please bring peace to my friend who is super anxious and not able to sleep.

Wait a minute.

I am also super anxious.

My leg itches.

Why does my leg itch?

I hope I didn’t get poison ivy on our 400th hike.

Should I get up and check?

No. That will just make me more awake.

Try to go back to sleep.

It’s probably nothing.

I wonder why my husband doesn’t have any issue sleeping.

He’s very sweet, but it’s still really annoying.

I’ve been kind of a cranky in the house the last few months.

Well, duh. I’m not getting good sleep.

But I should try harder tomorrow.

Maybe if I turn over and face the other direction, I will be able to go back to sleep.

That light from outside is still on.

Should I get up and turn it off?

It’s just wasting electricity and we’re trying to save money every which way we can.

That reminds me. I have to call the electrician to fix our light fixture.

But maybe that should wait.

We are in the middle of a pandemic.

Stop being so ridiculous.

What are the chances of the electrician infecting me?

I can just leave the house and then Lysol spray everything he touches.

I hope Lysol wipes will finally get back in stock somewhere.

This pillow is just not comfortable.

God, can you please help me to get back to sleep.

There are a lot of people who don’t even have a bed.

I should be so thankful.

What is wrong with me?

I have everything I need.

What is wrong with me?

There I go again, heaping shame on myself. UGH.

I need to listen to that podcast on healing from shame tomorrow.

Am I ever going to be really okay?

Yes. I’m going to be okay.

I’m safe in God’s hands.

Nothing can happen to me that He won’t be with me.

That’s the truth.

I’m hanging on to that.

Maybe now I can actually go back to sleep.

Uh-oh. I have to pee.